In The Middle

I've interviewed. Taken 4 tests. Worked every day. And even went home this weekend. Yet even in the midst of the crazy I feel like I didn't even stress about anything until my interview on Wednesday. 

I walked into the interview room and everything we talked about I felt like I was knowledgeable on the subject and now know that my job at Guardian Pharmacy has allowed me to have medical experience that I could talk about in my interview. Not only did I get to talk about my job but I also got to talk about Marshall. Speaking about this brought up emotions but somehow I was able to keep a calm and steady voice and finish my interview. I know that I gave the interviewers everything I had and all I have to do it wait. 

There's nothing I can do, and as you all know that is not something I deal with well. Yet at this time I've found myself a lot less stressed about school work or even nursing in general. I have a feeling of just being able to let go like never before. I guess it's from the knowledge that God will not forsake me. It doesn't matter whether or not I get in because there's another plan in action if I don't and if I do, then I know I am following down the path I believe God has going right now. 

I am stuck in the middle of decisions. It's not a completely easy place to be yet I know that here God has to be and in completely in control. There is nothing for me to even try and grip to and change. I've found peace in letting go and can only say that it's an experience that I am really enjoying. Updates will be posted as soon as I get them!

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My Andy

I am BEYOND THRILLED to announce that I received a letter from the WellStar School of Nursing indicating my selection for an interview! (That will hopefully be followed by full acceptance!) I got my letter today and that is a miracle in and of itself but what is probably not known is the back story behind this letter.

I knew to go ahead and start looking in the mail for a letter indicating acceptance or denial and I had obviously prayed for acceptance. Well, I hadn't received my letter but in church this Sunday, a friend let me in on the hint of going online and trying to sign up for an interview because if you get in you can sign up and vice versa. And being the patient person that I am, I actually waited until I got into the car before I checked instead of looking right there during Sunday School. I logged onto OwlExpress, clicked on the link, and my heart broke.

Once again, I stared failure in the face. And thankfully the shock took a moment to set in so I could begin my sobbing in a parking lot rather than in the car with three little ones. I climbed out of the car and stood in the parking lot and with a broken heart just sobbed for a good minute. Thankfully my mom was there to comfort me in person and not just over the phone this time. And her talk was one of the most inspiring I've ever heard, 

"Taylor, you can't lie down and not fight for something you love... something you believe in. Think of this, when Andy was in his car wreck I fought for him for 18 days. I fought tooth and nail for him. The doctors knew when I was coming because they knew that I'd have questions they'd have to answer or things I'd want them to do to help Andy. I fought for him because I loved him. I fought for him until God showed me and told me, "Denise, there is no getting better." Only then did your dad and I decide to let him go. We had done everything we could for him. We loved him, raised him in a Christian home, watched over him, prayed for him, he was saved, and we Fought. For. Him. against every odd. Your nursing dream hasn't reached "no getting better". You have the grades, you have the knowledge, and you have the ability. Go fight for your dream. Until God shows you that there is "no getting better" you must never give up."

After some research I realized that my entrance exam scores hadn't been turned in and then all of the sudden, I had hope. I called the office today and an advisor asked me to bring my my scores and within a matter of minutes the decision had been reversed and I received an acceptance letter for an interview! I had fought for what I love and I had come out on top. I had won for my Andy. 

Thanks to many people for so much encouragement. I definitely couldn't have fought without you. Go fight for your Andy. Don't let your fear of failure stop your from fighting for your dream. Until there is "no getting better" don't ever give it up.

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