I'm a big fan of the Big Bang Theory, but mostly for its comedic value. But the line I quoted above struck a chord in me. There have been so many times this semester that I've wanted to get on a train and leave forever.
I'm graduating, moving, choosing a new career, applying to graduate schools, taking the GRE, and so much more. But sometimes it just feels like it's all happening at once. It's thrilling and terrifying all at the same time. For some reason, I took my eye off the prize and got lost in the drudging details of it all.
This past week I've had to analyze "Boo-koos" of images and neurons individually and painstakingly to try and make sure everything was right.(I'm not really going to say the number because even thinking about it overwhelms me.) My mom once told me, "If you don't have time to do it right the first time, where are you going to get the time to do it again?" Thankfully, there is time to do it again. But all of these decisions I'm making that lead to these changes area a one time only deal. I don't get a chance to do them again.
However, it's going to be okay. While the beauty is in the details, nothing can substitute for the bigger picture. These life changes come and go. They happen in perfect timing. Even if we force them to come early. I have an extensive support group and those people are the reason I'm not getting on a train and running away forever. They tell me to breathe and look up. These changes are going to help me in my new phase of life. As big and scary as it may be, I will be prepared by the time they get here.
"What can I do Leonard? Everything is changing and it's simply too much."
Don't get on the train and run away. Take a deep breath.
Live Today.
