One of my most earnest prayers lately has been for God to guard my heart. And for me to understand what that means. Not only has God kept watch over it, he has put it away for someone only worthy of it chosen by the big man himself. That doesn't stop your heart from aching. It doesn't stop your heart from feeling. It only keeps your heart strong whenever an ache does come along. You no longer feel like your world comes crashing down whenever things don't work out with that guy/girl like you had hoped. But whenever you have your heart guarded that doesn't mean you become cold and distant from people. I've actually found that to be quite the contrary.
Earlier this summer I went through a rough break up. Rough on me and rough on the guy. My heart was damaged. I was hurting. The people closest to me knew this and listening to their advice did help, but that didn't stop it from hurting. I immediately started praying that God would keep my heart in his hands. Heal it. Mold it. Make it shine. And in that I found that with God having the human side of my heart, I have a yearning to find God's heart to replace what I had given him. God doesn't call us to keep our hearts to ourselves. In fact we're supposed to sacrifice them for him and to him. And then we're supposed to share that peace/joy/love with everyone, even if it is just a simple hello or genuine smile to someone that we usually don't talk to or see. He promises to take care of us no matter what and who am I to argue with that?
In that I have been more open with people. More loving towards others and myself. I used to keep quiet and to myself at work but over this semester I've talked to the people I work with and for and I can honestly say that it's been a completely eye opening experience to who I work with and what they've faced, what they enjoy, what they like outside of the office walls. I have made friends in my classes. Last year I was actually terrified of even speaking to other people. This year, it's actually completely different. I know the people around me, what's going on in their lives and I love it! I love the new me. I love who God is shaping me to be. I have a prayer that I pray every morning whenever I wake up.
"God thank you for another day. Love me, lead me, guide me, guard me, keep me."
In that prayer is everything I could ever want from God. I couldn't survive without his love. I would have no direction if he didn't lead me. While he is leading me I need him to show me the way not just forge the path. This whole post is about his guarding my heart so of course I want that. I want to be in his hands held firm thru the storms and the aches. I know I have to go thru them, but I certainly don't want to face them without protection from the man that knows why everything happens.
Live Today.
Earlier this summer I went through a rough break up. Rough on me and rough on the guy. My heart was damaged. I was hurting. The people closest to me knew this and listening to their advice did help, but that didn't stop it from hurting. I immediately started praying that God would keep my heart in his hands. Heal it. Mold it. Make it shine. And in that I found that with God having the human side of my heart, I have a yearning to find God's heart to replace what I had given him. God doesn't call us to keep our hearts to ourselves. In fact we're supposed to sacrifice them for him and to him. And then we're supposed to share that peace/joy/love with everyone, even if it is just a simple hello or genuine smile to someone that we usually don't talk to or see. He promises to take care of us no matter what and who am I to argue with that?
In that I have been more open with people. More loving towards others and myself. I used to keep quiet and to myself at work but over this semester I've talked to the people I work with and for and I can honestly say that it's been a completely eye opening experience to who I work with and what they've faced, what they enjoy, what they like outside of the office walls. I have made friends in my classes. Last year I was actually terrified of even speaking to other people. This year, it's actually completely different. I know the people around me, what's going on in their lives and I love it! I love the new me. I love who God is shaping me to be. I have a prayer that I pray every morning whenever I wake up.
"God thank you for another day. Love me, lead me, guide me, guard me, keep me."
In that prayer is everything I could ever want from God. I couldn't survive without his love. I would have no direction if he didn't lead me. While he is leading me I need him to show me the way not just forge the path. This whole post is about his guarding my heart so of course I want that. I want to be in his hands held firm thru the storms and the aches. I know I have to go thru them, but I certainly don't want to face them without protection from the man that knows why everything happens.
Live Today.
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