The final days of pageant preparation are upon me. My wardrobe is finalized, my tan is on, and I'm practicing my make up. (Those of you who know me know this is a tiny miracle in itself.) All of my summer classes are finished and so I finally have time to read, decompress, and focus on competing. Now therein presents the problem. I recently wrote that I am competitive. My competitiveness really shows its face when I have time to analyze my actions before hand and consider how to make myself the most pleasing thing to the judges. Those thoughts right there sent off a red light in my head. I can only be myself. I want to be my best self, but nonetheless changing my personality to attempt to fit the situation will not help me present myself. I don't want to present someone else's vision of me. I want to show who I have become through trials and celebrations.
One of my wonderful friends sent me some encouragement after I told her that I am truly trying to not fall into my analyzing and staying composed.
"You will be (composed and ready). Let God keep you hear still!"
God has kept me thru so much more than pageants and he will definitely keep me thru this. I feel no pressure. I was once told that pressure doesn't come from God. I really believe this is true. "For God is a not a God of disorder but a God of peace." 1 Corinthians 14:33. (Shout out to CentriKid 2011 for that verse!) I feel organized. Ready to go. And a lot of peace. I also hope to keep it this way. I know my direction and I know what I want to go out and do. I pray for God's will but more importantly his peace.
Four more days!
Live Today.
One of my wonderful friends sent me some encouragement after I told her that I am truly trying to not fall into my analyzing and staying composed.
"You will be (composed and ready). Let God keep you hear still!"
God has kept me thru so much more than pageants and he will definitely keep me thru this. I feel no pressure. I was once told that pressure doesn't come from God. I really believe this is true. "For God is a not a God of disorder but a God of peace." 1 Corinthians 14:33. (Shout out to CentriKid 2011 for that verse!) I feel organized. Ready to go. And a lot of peace. I also hope to keep it this way. I know my direction and I know what I want to go out and do. I pray for God's will but more importantly his peace.
Four more days!
Live Today.
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